When I first started this blog, it seemed as though I had an infinite supply of topics, happenings, stories, etc., related to my marriage and divorce with an alcoholic.
Topics would pop into my head, and I would sit down and quickly produce a decent post. Those urges come to me much less frequently now.. At first I blamed it on my mood. Then I blamed it on the weather…then on being too busy. Then I read a morning reflection, like I do every morning, and God spoke through it to me. “You’re healed.”
Could it be that my words came easily through the pain? Could it be that the lessons I learned needed to be shared while I was still learning them? Did I help anybody else, or did I just help myself? Perhaps this blog was just what I needed to do to heal me, and now…… I’m good:-). Should I stop writing?
I know my one post (about parking in the garage) had weighed heavily on my mind for several weeks before I wrote it. Once I did, a burden lifted.
I definitely needed to get stuff off of my chest (in a confidential way). In my mind, I figured there would be other people out there in the “reading universe” that could benefit from my experiences, even if it was just to know that they weren’t the only ones going through something similar. But I wasn’t sure.
Then, I posted a quote on my Instagram that made a difference. It simply said:
When she brings it up once, you say she’s complaining. When she brings it up twice, you say she is nagging. When she cries about it, you say she is being too sensitive. My good friend, let me ask you this: when she leaves you, what will she be then?
It got 10 times more likes than what my IG posts usually get. So, apparently, I hit the magic button of something that appealed to others. So maybe there is a reason to write.
A reflection I read this morning suggested to readers that we can’t look for results in good deeds that we do. Instead, we should just keep doing good deeds knowing that it’s the right thing to do.
For now, I will write when the mood strikes, not for myself, since I’m “healed” LOL, but for potentially one person who may catch a moment of peace, love, or support from my words. And, I’m certain I will continue to heal:-)